Oh my!

I really haven't blogged in ages.

And time just passes by so quickly.

This time, I feel a bit lost about things..

Maybe it's because I'm going away for a rather long period of time. Maybe it's because certain things have changed.
But oh well, I have to believe that it's for the better. I can learn something from this experience.

And oh man, it's already Christmas eve! my 21st year of my life has passed by so quickly. I don't even think that I will have time to celebrate my 22nd because it's just so fast! It seems like yesterday I was just celebrating my 21st!
Well, the other reason is also because I won't be around next year for my birthday! How significant is that! My first birthday that I am not in Singapore!

It's kinda as 'big' as celebrating Christmas or the New Year overseas.. HAHA! I say 'big' since I don't really have much of a celebration except going out for food.

Given that it's nearing the year-end, I would like to propose a new New Year's resolution.
My resolution for 2009 is to avoid alcohol. But I'm still 'proposing' it because I'm going on exchange and there's still the Christmas feast, New Year's feast to come..

Oh well, I should really go and sleep soon! Another new year resolution is to get rid of my dark rings! heh..

Hmm..I forgot what else I wanted to type..

I said I wanted to watch a lot of movies.. but the truth is, I haven't watched one since the exams ended! Okay, I think I watched Madagascar 2... Yup, that was the last one I watched.
Kinda sad isn't it.? But I'm starting to tighten my purse since I practically put a bomb in it the past few weeks..

Need income.. I'm thinking of buying TOTO or 4D.HAHAH! Just kidding lah.. It's not so good also..
I should start finding a proper job..

Life sucks this way..HAHA! but it's all we've got..

Give me a sec while I do my mental calculations..
That's more than half a year ago!

Before my internship!! Before my Philippines trip!! (Pls refer to http://brown6.blogspot.com)

Oh well, anyway, I'm supposed to be doing my readings..

I went to facebook and I tried 'Who has the biggest brains?'
and I was so disappointed when my brain size shrunk.
Even the game master was like, you've performed better before!

Sigh. what a difference times makes. I could swear that I took the quiz less than 3 months ago .I think..

oh well.. So what if my brain's slow and disintegrating.. (must have consumed some of the evil milk products)

HAIZ

Looking back at my life.. (hmm, on second thoughts, I don't really want to cos I don't think I'd have a lot of positive things to say and it would take a long long long time)

Let's not look back into the past, let's treasure the present and look into the future! : ))

I will most probably be going to Sydney for 4 months for my exchange next year. Woohoo! : )

I'll miss my rabbits though.. HAIZ.. I think by the time I'm back they would have forgotten me!! : ( so sad hor!!

USyd,,, apparently it's a good school.. Or that's what my friend said. I only chose it because it was the only Uni in Sydney..haha!!
My mum has friends in Sydney so she said that if I went there, at least she has contacts there..

And also, I've explored the place before on my own last year! : )) So yeah, not bad.. I think I already know the city by heart. the only problem is, I didn't see anything resembling a University when I was there.. So it's probably on the otherside of the city..

Oh wells. Pls come and visit me when I'm there.. hahaha! : )
The school term's from March to June. but there's orientation which I might be ponning because it starts in January! Who's gonna pay for the additional 2 months of living expenses and rent I ask you..tsktsk...

And of course, I don't wanna miss CNY! My ang baos!! : )))
And of course Red Cliff 2. HAHAHA!! I think you must be thinking that I'm weird right..the focus is all wrong..

HAIZ.. I can't believe it! After 21 years in Singapore, I will be going off to Australia to spend 3-4 months alone!

The other person who's going with me to USyd (they only accept 2 students from school) is this Year 4 called Galvin.. And he hasn't contacted me so I'm not gonna contact him too.. Sian lor. I was hoping it was a girl then at least can share apartment.. and everything else..hahaha!  : ) but guy then a bit weird. His name is Yeo Yi.. Galvin is not even inside his name..

Sad leh.. how to go shopping alone! hope I make friends there.. should i bring my tennis racket or should I make an excuse to get a new one over there. muahahha! : )

crazy hor. HAIZ : ))

So from Dec - Feb I'll be slacking at home.. Whee!~~
Maybe go on holiday or something.. hahaha! : )

See how lah.

In the meantime, back to reality. HAIZ back to my readings. and back to my mundane and pathetic life.. RAWR!
So much for treasuring the present.

boo..

PS. I love Eason, Brown and Penny! : )

Or was it 9 weeks?

Within these 9 weeks, loads have happened.

My beloved Gramps passed away on the wee hours of the morning of 26th of March. He was 88 (or at least going to be on the coming 24th of April). haiz.

The news shocked me. I remember waking up that morning and not having much reaction because my parents left the house to go to his place and told us children to carry on with lessons/school as per normal.

It wasn't until I went down to the wake in the evening before reality actually hit me that he was gone forever.
It is hard to get over that fact - even till now, 2 weeks after he left..

He was the funniest guy you could ever meet. All his children say and think so.

That day, my uncle sat us all down and asked us what we felt was the deepest memory of my Gramps. We all said it was the time he and my Grandma brought us to Sentosa when we were super duper young.. That time, it was the start of free shuttle buses into Sentosa from Tiong Bahru where my grandparents lived.

So excited as we were, we headed for Sentosa with great expectations. We wanted to visit Fort Siloso, Butterfly Park, you name it..

Hahah! We were in for a nasty shock.
Turns out my grandparents thought that bringing 5 juveniles out to a huge place like Sentosa was a bit too troublesome after all.

So in the end, the 7 of us just sat in the monorail...I think we went past the station for Fort Siloso and Butterfly Park 3 times..
HAHA!! it was so bad, I think our butts already had the grooves of the seats..

In the past, the seats of the monorail were those with grooves.. See the incident is so ingrained in my memory. haha!!

My uncle then told us that his strongest impression was when Gramps went with his 6 sons to fish in the sea. They had rented a small boat and off they went.

Some background info: My gramps was a fishmonger so he was very particular with his fish. Somehow, my dad  and I suppose all his other sons know a bit about choosing fish. But that's another issue all together.

So when the 7 of them went on the fishing trip, they actually bought burgers (the starting to be in-thing then).

Then the funniest things happened:

1. My gramps apparently got seasick - which stunned everyone cos he was supposed to be the fishmonger and the very powerful on the sea kind.. HAHAHAHA (my uncle recalled this with tears in his eyes.. T.T)

2. Then okay, after he puked, they went to have their burgers. Then they got an even larger shock! The burgers were beef! My gramps doesn't eat beef because he prays to Guan Yin. HAHAHAH!!


Haiz.. so funny right??

So many stories about this great man...

I really miss him now.. sigh..


So please please cherish your family and friends..
Life is unpredictable..try not to live with regrets..

If you don't know which match it was, you probably might skip this entry..HAHA!!

Anyway, for those reading on, it was the Tottenham vs Man Utd match.

Tottenham played very well last night. Still, I didn't really like the fact that Jenas kept pushing his way around (i mean literally pushing people)
At first, he pushed Vidic so many times!! Disgusting sportsmanship.. Then when Andersen came on, Jenas went to push Andersen. And you know Andersen does not take that kind of sh*t so he complained to the ref...HAHA!!

And it was his handball in the penalty box that allowed the Tottenham goal in the first place. So Man Utd were trailing 1-0 to Tottenham all the way till the 90th minute..

Nani wasted precious chances, Rooney kept getting his shots saved by the Tottenham keeper who was good..
And so I sat on the edge of the couch and we were in stoppage time!!

The last corner!

Corner kick, the Tottenham defenders in a mess and Tevez in plenty of space, unmarked. And Man Utd leveled on the last second. Final score 1-1!
Then I started to breathe.. big headache after that..

My head was spinning so badly.HAHA

But I'm glad they won!

7 yellow cards with Wes Brown getting one as well..for his tackle..HAHA!

Exciting Saturday Football Night.

I find myself, just 3 days from Chinese New Year, and dreading the days after that..

Let's not go into the ugly details of deadlines and schoolwork..

I was surfing the net for Penny Tai after I recalled something related to her new songs..
If you have the time, you can like backtrack to my previous posts (from the very beginning) I must have mentioned her and her songs before because she's one of those rare artistes whom I buy series of their albums.
Others include A*mei and Utada.

Well, something happened to her last year so from this year onwards she decided that she's no longer going to produce albums but upload her songs online for people to download (of course you have to pay to dl them). That's where my dilemma comes in..

It means I can't listen to her new songs anymore unless I pay online.. I think it's probably a common in the States to buy your songs online..but here in my home, it's very rare for one to do so. So I spent the whole afternoon going onto Chinese websites and trying to find her song..
And as the sites were in Chinese, (even though I did Higher Chinese) I took a damn long time trying to figure out the words..like where to press for what function...OH MAN! The horror..AND the result of hours of hard work turned out to be just listening to the chorus of her song on one of her official websites..

Pathetic lah..but I'm in love with the song now...HAHA
Even though I only heard the chorus..because of the lyrics.. I generally like all of her songs, see..

So a wave of 'depression' comes over me... You know, like feeling lost and helpless that you won't be able to listen to her songs..unless you stay by your radio 24/7 and hope they play it.. Which is very hard because she isn't one of the radio faves like Jolin, SHE, Jay Chou..
Oh well..

Anyways, just an example of how good a songwriter she is:
This is from her website.Just a short paragraph of her thoughts (in a poem format I presume)

從遇見 到相戀 從了解 到疲倦
從誓言 到改變 從流淚 到懷念
從說好永遠 到僅剩從前
我們才猛然發
愛　不愛　只是
一念之間

anyway, the tittle of the song I was searching for all day was "一念之間"

戴佩妮 - 一念之間 作詞：戴佩妮 / 作曲：戴佩妮
	我從來不敢穿你送的那件毛衣  只敢欺騙自己 冬天比較快過去  所以來不及穿你    我從來不敢打開裝滿你的抽屜  只敢反鎖自己 任日子一天天過去  所以忘記打開你    月半彎伴著每對戀人擁抱背影  不想看卻又把幸福都影在眼裡  是羨慕還是妒忌 我不懂澄清    一念之間發現你的愛情竟然不見  這幾年你留下的原來只有謊言  說得再美也無法沉澱 空洞得可憐  一念之間發現愛情竟然是種危險  這幾夜我哭了好幾遍  靠得再近也是種虧欠  我不是你隨隨便可以敷衍

She also dabbles in film and photography..
So everytime you watch her music videos and you see "Singer/Songwriter/Lyricist/Director: Penny Tai"
I can't help but feel that she's damn cool..Doing everything herself..
A really capable person..

Okay, maybe not quite.

I don't know why but I'm getting stressed out over my individual presentation this coming Thursday. I've probably presented a billion times but I still can't wait for it to be over. I can't do anything else with the nagging feeling of my presentation coming up. HAHA!!

So I decided to blog.. To sort of 'voice out' my frustrations..Hopefully, after this, I can concentrate on more important stuff like my readings..
I'm doing 5.5 mods. A never before act of insanity. So I'm feeling abit worried.

Btw, Jan's the name of the pillow thingy in the shape of a ram which I got for my 18th birthday. I got Wes Yellow for my 17th birthday. (If I didn't remember wrongly..) yup.

Somehow my 19th and 20th birthday zoomed past. Can't really remember anything fancy..haha!
And this year, I turn 21.. and a whole lot of my friends as well.

My initial idea of a 21st birthday was a theme of pizza, booze and music. I could plan something like that but it wouldn't go down too well with my 87 year old grandfather and 84 year old grandmother.. HAHA!!

I'm thinking of having a separate celebration thingy..one for the relatives and one for the mates..
But then, do I combine all my mates in one huge party or celebrate separately? There's always the health issue of O.D if I keep celebrating one day after the other with different friends.HAHA!! Better to get drunk once and for all right??

Then 2 cakes or more?! I really don't know man.

Aiyah.. Don't know lah..

Might not be something big in the end..

It's very early in the morning...
okay, not very early.. 

This post will be about songs.

1. I just found out that this singer I like a lot is not going to produce any more albums.
2. Eason Chan's 'K ge zhi wang' won the best song of the past decade. And rightfully so. You should go to kbox and dian the cantonese version. It's a lot more touching...

Okay, maybe not all about songs.. just gonna start about songs..

I finished the korean drama, Coffee Prince, last night!!

I think it really is a drama because I've never witnessed such loving couples.. They really love each other until like that.. haha!! unbelievable.. unrealistic.. HAHA!!

can't believe we're already in 2008..

Argh!

It's the first day of 2008. But I don't know..I just feel a little sad..

Feel like...
I haven't accomplished much over the past year
I'm not needed in this place
I don't know how to communicate well
I'm trying to live like a hermit
the way I'm living now means that nothing much will happen in 2008 because I will still remain the same
I need a huge change or revamp of my life

I recently read Sharon Au's blog and there was an entry which went something like this:

She read from a philosopher that those who live day to day just following what has been arranged for them is no better than a monkey. Only responding to stimuli from outside but will never learn how to live for himself/herself. 

The words hit me quite bad..haha!! because I feel that maybe I am like that.. Perhaps, life's much easier to live that way..but is it the way I want to live mine?
Bleah..

Maybe I'm just hard to satisfy? HAHA!! I know I'm luckier than most people but when life gets too easy, we want to make it harder?? Sounds ironic.. 

Don't know how this post will be interpreted by others but aiyah..

It's just a phase.. probably because I'm hungry or something so my thoughts run wild..

I know I'll get over it soon..

Maybe I should get a haircut. Start afresh..

My new glasses make me look nerdy..hah!!

I want to sleep but is sleeping wasting time? We've heard the phrase, "You can sleep when you're dead." so many times but...sigh..

I like to think of sleeping as a means of allowing me to start afresh..cleanse my mind..allow me to think my life through..But then again, I might just become more disappointed with myself..Why did I become like that? etc etc.. 

Was it one wrong decision in the past that's gonna bring me all the way down?! haiz...we'll never know will we?

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Quite cool!
Go to the official Golden Compass website to find out what your daemon is!!

I'm a lion. : )
Zyrxy..haha...weird name..